Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Oh What A Feeling!

I don't think I'll actually be able to express how elated I am after last night, but I'll try writing a few notes about it.

After all of our nursing issues, Sweet T actually latched on last night and nursed until she fell asleep. Boy, I was over-joyed. I still can't think of the words to describe it.

I will admit that, at first, when she started crying and wouldn't go to sleep I just let Prince Charming go in her room and try to calm her. After I went downstairs and fixed the bottles for today and came back up to pump, we decided we'd see if she would latch on. (She'd sucked on PC's arm for a while and almost fell asleep that way so we figured she might be hungry and that might be a sign she would latch on.) Before I went in there, I still needed to pump for the night so I was wishing she would stop being so fussy and would just go back to sleep because I was tired.

Man, when she latched on and actually started nursing, my feelings/emotions changed. I could've cared less about how tired I was or what I still needed to do. My beautiful, baby girl was actually nursing. I felt like, for the first time, I was actually doing something good for her and finally able to provide for her. This definitely lifted my spirits some, too.

Since she'd just finished a full bottle shortly before this, I knew she wouldn't take much. Nonetheless, that 10-15 minutes I got to spend with her as she nursed herself to sleep was so amazing!

Because of the issues we've had with nursing, I probably won't ever get to a point where I'd trust letting her nurse for a full meal, but I will definitely start trying to offer it again if she still acts hungry after finishing a bottle. I can definitely see why some mothers enjoy breastfeeding so much.

1 comment:

Jenna said...

WOW...I know that you were so excited!